Into The Sunshine

I think intimacy is the most sacred thing in the world.

When you know someone, and it's not just a front. When someone has seen parts of you that you keep hidden at all times, even if you're a very open--maybe too open--person. When a person is able to look at you and see something that nobody else does...because they can. And because you let them.

I am a strange person. As in the above, I write sentences in the 2nd person sometimes. I love to be with people, but I also love to be alone. I develop crushes on any man or woman in this world who has a Scottish accent. I love vodka and lemonade...in small quantities. I like to wear flip flops, even though I hate it when my feet get all dirty and yucky. I'm scared of swimming in the ocean or the sea or a river or something, because if a fish bit me (or even TOUCHED me) I would be utterly traumatized (she says sincerely). I can't look at another person without wondering how they look at me. I tell stories to myself in my head. I wish life were a movie, or at least a documentary with a really good soundtrack. I am jealous a lot of the time. I am unsure a lot of the time. I love cats and dogs, but I'm a little scared of dogs because when I was four, I was rolling on the grass in a park and a Great Dane puppy jumped on me. I miss opera, but not too much; mostly, I miss how happy I was there. I want to undo my mistakes right after I do them. I have a reel of Awkward Moments that plays in my head sometimes and still makes me cringe. I hate it when I grow apart from friends, even if I'm conscious that it's happening and I do nothing to stop it. I love musicals, but I feel like the genre is going downhill. I like wearing baggy clothes. I love the theater in every way, shape, and form. I want everyone to like me, and know that as long as that's not true I'll always be a little bit unhappy, if only deep inside myself. I can't wait to move out of my house; I have no idea what I'll do when that time comes. I can't imagine a world without my mom or dad. My sister is one of the few people in the world I worry about impressing. I want people in the future to know my name. I have a single Miley Cyrus song on my iPod. I know I have problems, but I know they'll work out in the end, because everything does; of course, that doesn't mean I won't have tons of new problems. I want to lose weight so badly. I have HUGE feet. I have ridiculously weird cuticles. My favorite musical/movie is RENT. I actually think that 42 is an important number. The one person I will always know and trust the most in the world is myself.

Now you know things about me. When we meet, if you can remember even one, that's intimacy. I said some things everyone knows, some things no one knows, and some things you might know. I wouldn't know.